Is thinking a dying art form or is it the start of something deeper?
Are you talking to me? or Am I talking to you?
You know I’ve been told on numerous occasions that I think way too much and that perhaps I should just do and be done with. Its not like I am thinking about changing the world or anything so grand as inventing a time machine, no its that I often look deep into why people do what they do when they do it. Far from being a psychologist of learned standing I am what a layman would call a peaceful troubled mind. Not in a menacing way of course but in the vain of trying to piece together human natures behaviours and indiocyncrasies when indeed I could be chilling with a cup of tea and slice of cake. So what intrigues me so much about people? Surely if you’ve seen one type of human behaviour you’ve seen them all and when you have seen humans in their truest forms what then do you do with the information? Do you send it to a laboratory for analysis? Unfortunately or fortunately my laboratory is made up of my ‘Beautiful Mind’ and on seeing the film of the same name I began to wonder a very strange wonder.
I wondered if after all my years of over thinking the behaviours of people, if I hadn’t inadvertently trained my mind to became schizophrenically obsessed and delusional with passion for finding the meaning of life for other people and what their purpose on this earth really is/was. From watching ‘A beautiful mind’ and subsequent research I have come to understand that everyone has an element of schizophrenia within them, that everyone has moments of delusions brought on by deep seated passions whether good or bad. Like a form of escapism I believe I relied on these mild disorders like an obsessed Xbox Gamer or like the worst singers on talent shows who believe wholeheartedly that they can sing and nothing will persuade them otherwise, not even the experts – delusional or just untalented, seems there is a thin line between the two and yet this affords good entertainment to the viewing public…hummm.
I feel I have learned to control my urges to obsess with my people interest, but like any OCD it will just take time.